I could kick myself. But I'm not going to. I found excuses for why I didn't need this, why I shouldn't do it. Some of them were even legitimate. But none were big enough to warrant my dropping this challenge like I did. I just didn't want to do it, simple as that.
So, where do I go from here? I'm starting over. Day 1 begins right now. Honestly, I still don't want to do this. But it is extremely important that I do it anyway. I know now that it is more connected to everything going on in my life than I had realized. Changes must be made, and the challenge was specifically given to facilitate that growth. I knew that before, but now I get it.
There is a lesson in all of this for me, something I can't learn any other way. I'm still digesting it. Still trying to understand. It's like a marble in the hand, but the significance is beyond full comprehension. Like the parables. Like love. Like God.
Well, here I am. Again.